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Missing in action

It's been a while since my last post (I know, you've heard that before, my apologies). No, I haven't just been hiding from the world, being boring and bored, I have actually done something useful too. And I've been boring. And bored. But not too much.

Last summer I set myself some tasks to do before the end of September (you can read about that here). They were: a walk in coastal Sussex in late July/early August, go to a West End show/musical, go to Notting Hill Carnival and join a group (any group). The positive thing is that I went to see Mamma Mia! the musical, on my birthday no less, combined with a nice meal with a friend, and I've joined several groups. Doesn't that sort of make up for the fact that I never went to Sussex or the Notting Hill Carnival? Especially as I've just been to Edinburgh for a long weekend?
Beautiful Edinburgh, Scotland

The less good news is that I've been in the grips of quite a severe midlife crisis in the past couple of months. I used to think that middle-aged men who all of a sudden divorce their wife, get a 20-something girlfriend, a sports car and start behaving like half their age were pathetic. Not anymore. Now I feel sympathy towards them. Yes, I do worry about myself.

To cheer me up I booked my next holiday. I'm going to be spending Christmas in Mexico. That's my equivalent of a sports car. I'm holidaying like there's no tomorrow. But it is exciting! It's super exciting, in fact.

My biggest news though is that I've joined the Screw Work Let's Play 30 Day Challenge. It's running for the month of November and I'm working on a play project (this blog is part of it) with the aim of producing an e-book at the end of it. It's the sort of push that I need to discipline myself and it's incredibly motivating to be reading about what all the other participants are doing as their play projects.

I do think my life is a little bit more exciting than before. But I am starting to wonder whether the standard I'm setting for myself is just ridiculously high. Maybe some of it is just in my head? Maybe the media with all the images of perfect looking people wearing perfect clothes and leading perfect lives has brainwashed me to believe that nothing less than perfect is no good at all. Am I trying to reach something that doesn't even exist?

(She ponders.) No. I will continue my quest for a more exciting life. I'm only just now getting warmed up. I'll be back this weekend.


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