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Making 2014 count

Christmas tree in Covent Garden, London
You may have noticed the lack of images of Christmas trees here (see my previous post). I did take some, they just never made it here until today (I’m putting one up now to show that I really took some). Stress took over in December. Work was very busy and come evening all I wanted to do was to forget about doing anything unpleasant and just do what I fancied. And it wasn't blogging. At first I was stressing about not producing any content for my blog and then I started questioning whether the whole blog was a very good idea after all.

Yes, over the holidays I was seriously considering deleting this blog. My two blog posts that I’d crafted with care and excitement and fear, too. No more. Then I wouldn’t need to stress about blogging. But then the year changed and I was setting goals for the new year and came across the question of the blog; yes or no? It would’ve been much easier to decide ‘no’ but somehow I couldn’t let myself do that. It would have been giving up, not seeing something through, not experiencing new things in life! And that’s exactly what I’m trying to avoid.

So here I am, still blogging. I was reading something today that got me thinking. I never used to think that I was a perfectionist but in recent years it has become quite clear to me that – shock horror – I actually am. Now that I recognise it in me it’s easier to deal with it. And so I recognise that I want my blog, like every other project I start, to be perfect from the beginning and when it’s not I start stressing about it. It soon becomes something I view mostly negatively because it takes time and is not, well, perfect. But what I was reading today was saying that the goal is not to try and be perfect, simply because it’ll never happen.

How liberating. It’s never going to be perfect so stop stressing about it! I may not be able to set myself weekly goals to do something exciting and report it here as was my initial intention but I’m still writing about, well, stuff that relates to adding fun and excitement to my life. It’s better than nothing.

And even though my photographing-Christmas-trees-project never really got off the ground it did get me out and about to enjoy the various Christmas lights and decorations that London had plenty to offer. I felt more festive last December than I have for years – that's an achievement!

My New Year’s resolution is to make 2014 count. In my life, with this blog, this has got to be a year for doing things, for achieving goals so that I truly feel that I’m alive. On 31 December this year I want to be able to look back and think I used this year well.

P.S. Yes, I know it looks a bit bleak here so I hope to add some colour to this page soon. Bear with me.

And that holiday – I’m about to book it…

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